1 post tagged “admissions”
A friend of mine just got admitted to Columbia University, and although I am certainly extremely happy for him, I can't help but agonize over my own academic future. This past week has been undeniably torturous, moreso each day. I know that it isn't "that big of a deal," and that I shouldn't freak out over what university I get into, but something about being so unsure over my future is just ripping my stomach in two. The next 48 hours before I get a response from Brown are going to be stressful and horrid, and I just can't help but imagine myself stuck at a school at which I will not be happy. I mean, I know that a situation is always what you make of it, blah blah blah, but at some point this past week, the strings connecting my logical mind and my emotional mind just snapped. Everyone keeps reassuring me that I have nothing to worry about, but for some reason their points just aren't getting to me. I keep telling myself, "Listen, if you don't get into Brown, you'll go to Princeton, or Columbia, or Harvard, or UPenn," but for some reason that's just not comforting. At this point, it's the desire to know, the desire to be able to say that I know where I'm going, that I (at least vaguely) know what I'm doing.
So here are some (mainly brainless) things that have been keeping me sane over the past few weeks:
