The State of the Union
A kid that I was with today, who was high on marijuana, had been drinking, and was hopped up on Xanax and Adderall, told me that he hated drugs. "I had aspirations," he told me, "I wanted to be the best at everything I did. I'm just like that." He said that he was so fucked up, so fucked up, and worse off now than he had ever been. He said that he was sad, and wished that he had never started doing drugs. "I don't like being sober, though," he said, "It's too hard."
It makes me sad, this disgusting, cataclysmic cyclone of self-destructive behavior that teenagers seem to have flung themselves into. I guess it's just heightened by how naive I used to be (and still am, to a certain degree). I mean, every one of my female friends (the ones my age, at least) are getting wasted and high every weekend and hooking up with the most random, disgusting guys. There are girls crying in the bathroom, others throwing up in the bushes, still more giving blowjobs behind the bookshelf. Not to be a killjoy, but what the hell ever happened to morals? As much as I would like to have a boyfriend, I'm not so eager to do it that i'll fling myself at the nearest drunkard. Shoot me for wanting something genuine and not based on substance dependence, I guess.
It's weird; these kids were blossoming Mother Teresas Freshman year, they swore on their eight years of D.A.R.E. classes that they would never do so much as look at a cigarette, let alone drink or get high. I'm not saying that people shouldn't drink if they want to, but there's a difference between experimenting and the level that these kids are at (Popping E at skeevy clubs, at sixteen? Shrooms, pot laced with formaldehyde, these kids have encountered everything). Some of them are wasting such intellect on this crap, and all they do is deal with drama that erupts from it, week after week. Nothing is keeping these kids from ruining their lives; one day one of them is going to die, and they're going to get a huge fucking wakeup call.
Just thinking about all of this gives me such heavy boots. I wouldn't have believed anyone if they had predicted all of this two years ago.
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Finally, some food for thought: While our government discourages and punishes use of the substance Methamphetamine, it is simultaneously manufacturing it as Desoxyn(methamphetamine-hydrochloride), a legal pharmaceutical to treat ailments such as attention deficit disorder, narcolepsy and obesity. WTF?
As a side note, in highschool I was a member of Hi-Step, an organisation pretty much identical to DARE. Ultimately I quit this programme because the methods of scaring kids away from, say, natural herbs such cannabis sativa were unnecessarily abrasive, utilising slimey propaganda and very creative truths. Aside from being on a much smaller scale, it was really akin to methods any radical group (Nazis, Taliban, Christians, etc) use to deter their following from something they oppose or fear.